I'm fighting back fat!

For years I've thought to myself I will go on that diet soon maybe next week, maybe tomorrow maybe I will just stuff this piece of cake in my mouth while I decide. I am not about to start lying and say I have no idea where the weight came from, I know exactly where I came from. It has come from many years of eating, eating too much, the wrong things, the constant eat to cure everything from boredom, sadness, joy...basically any kind of emotion or occasion was a good excuse to eat.

I've not always been obese, not even always been over weight. There was a time before my house became filled with little people that soon grew up to be teenagers  that I used to wear size 8 jeans with room to move! 

Now I'm not sat here thinking I will get back into size 8 my body has been through too much to ever be there again, and that's okay. I don't even really have a weight in mind, of course the charts tell me what I should be but anyone that knows me will know I'm not so good with being told what to do. I think I will know when I get there what I am happy being. 

I joined slimming world 2 weeks ago after many failed years on other diets, I just seriously can't be bothered with all the counting and working out complicated systems before I could even eat all that did was lead to vast amount of junk being eaten in some self destructive "well if you can't make it easy I'm not doing it" kind of attitude, and yes I know that's like cutting off your nose to spite your face but I'm stubborn. 

Anyway back to these 2 weeks, so my first week I didn't really do it on the first day, we had a party to go to and I wasn't entirely in control of what I ate but I was at least conscious of what I was eating and tried to make good decisions. My first weigh in I had lost 4lb, I had hoped for more but I was just happy I hadn't broke the scales and put a shit load on. I did something I've never been able to keep up for long the following week which was plan everything! I filled in my food log before I had even eaten anything and then only ate what was on it.

So this week after my super organised week I was feeling like a complete pro, I get on the scales and I'm 4.5lb down Get in! Then to my amazement went and got slimmer of the week... BOOM!

I can't say as I've been totally on it yesterday and today so I need to get the butt in gear and get it together to make sure I lose again this week...I have surprised myself a bit though as I never really saw myself as one of those people that puts their loss awards on the freezer, but there it is reminding me every time I think about getting the ice cream out.